In Memory of Nipsey Hussle

In Memory of Nipsey Hussle

It's crazy how life goes, living your best life but the next second you're gone. Yesterday my life on earth was marked completed. I finished the race I was put there to run and I was told, "I succeeded." Greeted at the heavenly gates with a smile on the faces of all who stood before me. Beautiful life although short-lived keeping watch on all those I left that adore me.



Love, I'm sorry about the hurt in your eyes and the pain in your heart. I was given no warning on the day and time from this life I would depart. Know that my life with you meant everything and I'm so glad you were placed in my life. To be with you right now I'd give anything but it's not possible my beautiful wife.

You should know I'm always by your side - your guardian angel as I was made to be. You'll feel my love when the sun shines the brightest because my love will never leave. All the pictures, memories and voicemails will never make up for the fact that I'm not there. I know you still can't believe it but you read the stories everywhere.

Love, I don't want you to cry even though I know that you will. I don't want to see you in pain, I wish your heart I could just magically heal. I don't want you to lay alone so I'll make sure to fly close. I just want you to remember that even though I died, my love is never gone.

To my children.

I love you. See how daddy's head is down, that's cause I'll be watching from above you. I know you don't quite get it and it hurts. I know you're wondering why I ain't called probably asking am I at work. Remember I loved you first so you will always be number one. Daddy may not be able to touch you but I'll always send kisses and hugs - you'll feel them through your mom.

When we come into this world it's for a short while. I can't answer the why's but I want you to listen now. Take care of each other and don't let nothing tear ya'll apart. You can still talk to daddy cause I'm right there in your heart. When you miss me, look at our pictures and think about the times we shared. When you feel the pain in your chest just know that my love is everywhere. We weren't given much time but I'm so thankful for what time we had. The one thing I want to leave y'all with is, the best part of my life was being your dad.

Love,
Hussle & Daddy





Writing #InMemoryOf Nykea Aldridge (Cousin of Dwyane Wade)

I've seen on social media that Dwyane Wade lost his cousin, Nykea Aldridge and my heart was sadden. It's sad when anyone lose their life but to know that her four children are left without her...my heart go out to them all. I started tweeting in her memory this morning in hopes that he see it. I'm writing this poem right now...hoping he'll see it too. Know that I'm praying for your family. Know that I have God and His Angel's watching over you and yours. God Bless.

I wish right now was not happening
I wish that moment didn't have to occur
I wish I had taken another route
When death comes, we know not the time nor where.

On that day God said He needed an angel
My name was called and He sent for me
I know it doesn't make it any easier
I see the tears in your eyes and hear pain of your heartbeat.

I know the news of my passing hit you hard
I know that God hear our prayers and see our hearts
I went to Him and ask that He hold you close
I know my God and He will do so.

I know it seem unreal but remember the fun times we shared
Remember my laugh, the jokes I played and I'll be everywhere
You may not be able to pick up the phone and call
Just know that my love is still there loving on all of y'all.

To my children...

I know that right now this may be hard to understand
Asking where I'm at and wondering why my face...you're not seeing
I had to go to a place that God had prepared for me
Know that my love for you will forever be.

I see the tears falling from your faces, wishing I could be there
Reaching out, wanting to hold you cause I know pains everywhere
I will always be watching over you, loving you no matter what
Your mother's love is powerful and flowing down from the heaven's above.

Listen...

If I could turn back the hands of time, I would
To be standing there with you, I wish I could
Don't cry cause on my face I wear a smile
I'm home with God and my eternal life...I'm living now.

Love,
Nykea Aldridge

(Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 8/27/2016)

In Memory of Josh and Ryan "Rudy" Johnson (Brother's of Toya Wright)

I've seen all over social media that Toya Wright has lost her brother's to gun violence. My heart go out to her and her family. As I've written on this blog for many others who've gone through a tough loss, I wanted to do the same for her (and her family). I hope these words bring some form of comfort. Toya, know that I have God and His Angels watching over you and your family. God Bless.

Poem:

Ya' know God never make mistakes...right,
I know it's hard hearing how death came that night.
But God called us home and we had to go,
We couldn't stay long cause God said so.

He called for Angels, so to the heavens we fled,
Dressed in all white led by the Angels and trumpets in hand.
Know that our lives were lived to the fullest...trust that.
Don't know why they chose to do it...seems all bad.

Wish you could see the beautiful place we're in...make ya' feel better,
It's always gonna hurt, the fact remains we're not physically together.
Guess what? We're watching high and flying low when needed,
What can you do when God say your mission in life was completed.

We all know that death comes, we just don't know when,
We know it hurt ya' like hell when the ground took us in.
Know that a smile sits on our face, just to have been loved by all of you,
Know that our hugs will remain every time the winds blows through.

You can still talk to us, we're listening...forever and always,
When you feel you need to see us, let those memories replay.
Wish we could hold you in our arms and tell you it'll be okay,
Know that we'll standing at heavens gates when God say you cannot stay.

We love you and don't ever let a day go by when you don't know it,
Whether it's sunny or raining out, those are signs that show it.
If we could rewind the hands of time for an hour to wipe your tears, we would,
We're together in heaven so please don't cry y'all...we good.

Love,
Josh and Rudy

(Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 8/9/2016)

**Since I don't know you on a personal level, I wrote these words as God put them in my heart. Again, I hope they bring some form of comfort to Toya Wright, friends and family. God Bless.**

New Poem: You've Been Warned

You didn't believe me
Thought he was "Mr All That" and now
Now you want to talk shyt about him in my ear
But 
But when I was trying to tell you he was no good
Better yet, not a good father and would be no different to yours
You paid no attention
Oh, he was "Mr Do Right" in yo' eyes
I was just trying to paint him the bad guy
I was salty cause he didn't want me and y'all were super in love
I was jealous of the man that he was
Cause he came home to you
After leaving my house
But when I tried to tell you
You didn't want to believe me 
I was only a hater that didn't believe that love existed
It was just he wasn't meant for me you said
Love was what you had
But now 
You're trying to tell his "New Love" the truth
She's blowing you off 
But ain't that what new boo's do
Remember you did it
Now you want to call her stupid and childish
Saying that she'll soon see
Calling here crazy
Well that's the same thing you said about me
But remember
She gets to think things will be different
You did
She gets to live in fairy land 
Why not
You did
She gets to believe that he's "Mr All That"
You had one
She gets to ignore all your truths
You were once in love
Oh, but you want to say that you know him
Well so did I
You want to say that you only want to warn her
Well, that's what I tried
You want to say that she'll get hurt in the end
Same thing I tried telling you
You want to say that she don't know who she's dealing with
Well, this is what all ex's go through.

‪#‎YouveBeenWarned‬

In Memory Of Ingrid Williams (Wife of Monty Williams)

I just read an article posted on Facebook about the Monty Williams, assistant coach for the OKC Thunders, losing his wife, Ingrid Williams. Though I do not know them personally, I want to say that my prayers go out to Mr. Williams and their families. I write:


My car was hit and then I heard His voice say, "Come to me."
My body laid there with no life but my soul was set free.
God called me by name so in His arms I quickly flew,
After taking a moment to look back at you.

Losing me will not be an easy thing to deal with, I know
I hope it makes it a little easier to know that I made it safely home.
Though we question, God has never made a mistake,
All in His perfect timing, and my day finally came.

Your guardian angel, flying high above the earthly grounds,
When you feel the wind against your face, know that I'm hanging around.
As the thunder roar, I'm screaming out how much I love you,
When the sun shine, I'm sending my love from up above you.

I've asked God to be with you during the pain you feel,
I asked Him to hold you in his arms and He promised me He will.
Know that my body is not physically there but my love still love,
My kisses still kiss and my hugs still hug.

Love,
Ingrid Williams

(Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 2/13/2016)

In Memory Of Nicole Lovell

I was just watching the Dr. Phil show about the death of a 13-year old girl named, Nicole Lovell. Her dad brought me to tears and I could see how much this family was hurting. I wanted to write for them. So I wrote:

A cold night and you find my door jammed and I was missing from my room,
I know there was instant shock and thoughts of where had I gone to.
My open window let you know that I had run away somehow, gone somewhere,
I know there was so much pain in your heart because of such a big scare.
My life ended in what seems like such a short time, without a chance to really live,
Know that I lived my life to the fullest and was thankful for the thirteen years we shared.
If you ever need to see me, let those past memories replay in your head,
When the thunder roar, that's me screaming "I love you brother, Mom and dad!"
I know that your heart is shattered and you wish I was there standing next to you,
Hovering from up high, I have those same feelings too.
Dry your eyes, don't cry now.
When it hurts, just kneel down.
When you wonder, just say a prayer.
When you need me, always know that I'm there.
-Nicole

(Written by Leukemiona, 2/10/16)

Message from Kemi "The Poet Shala"

God is amazing. Every time someone request that I write a poem in memory of their loved one, I get so excited. God blessed me with one of the greatest gifts ever. To be able to sit down and write poems as if the departed rose from the dead, sat down and wrote them to their own family and friends put a big ol' smile on my face.

I want to be able to bring some form of comfort to hurting hearts. I want to put smiles back on the faces of those hurting from the loss of someone, even if it's just for a second. I want to give someone words to read in a card, in the body of an e-mail or on paper and hear their loved one speaking to them. It bring tears to my eyes to hear someone tell me:

"I love it. It sounds just like him/her."

"I really needed this. Thank you so very much."

"God has truly blessed you. The world needs you."

"Never stop writing."

And because I hear these words so often. I continue to do what I do. I will forever be the poet that God made me to be.

To request a poem, visit www.kemikreations.com and fill out the form on the "Contact" page.

I created a card titled "In Memory Of" (example below). This card was written as the departed is talking to their loved one, letting them know they are okay. If you know someone who has lost someone and could use one, be sure to visit my site and order yours today.

I also want to continue to be a blessing, and be able to grow my business. If you would like to support me:

Visit my GoFundMe account: www.gofundme.com/lrpffk

God bless and write. It heals.

-Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley (Kemi)

In Memory of Nancy Hart

I was watching YouTube and saw a video where Kevin Hart was talking about his mother and how much he missed her. I wanted to do something very special for him because I know how hard it is to lose someone you love. So thankful God blessed me with the gift.

Kevin, 

Every day since my passing I've witnessed your love for me,

Though it hurts like crazy, you've accepted that with God is where I'm suppose to be. 

Son, know that my love for you still floats around on the earth below,

Believe me when I say that a mother's love is a love that will forever live on. 

I walk around heaven and I say to the other angels, "Look at my son! He's amazing!"

We all sit up here and laugh at the jokes you tell as I say, "That boy is crazy."

I'm so blessed that God allowed me to spend my days on earth with you,

Thankful that He still allow me to see the amazing things that you do. 

As I look down and see you with your children, I am one proud mom/grandma,

Precious Heaven and my man Hendrix, I miss you all.

It brightens my day to see just how loving you all are and the goofy times you all share,

It's during these times I wish that I could just be there. 

God came to me and said, "Nancy you've fulfilled your purpose, you must come home now."
He sent His best angels, with beautiful faces and pure white gowns.
He extended His hand and upon it I stood as He brought me up to enter heaven's gates,
Physically gone from the earth but on the other side I await.

I know my God and He will be with you every single day of your life,
Open your Bible on a daily basis and read the scriptures in it, Kevin read them twice.
Know that I'll always be with you as God made me an angel to oversee,
Watching over you, Robert, my grandchildren, friends and family.

Death can never take me away from you, in your heart is where you'll find me,
From the start of each morning to the end of each night, I'm wherever you may be.
Continue to fulfill your purpose, God has great things planned for you,
Just remember know matter what, your mother Nancy Hart will always be loving you.

Love,
Mom

(©Leukemiona Kelley, 2015)

My Poetry Letter To All of You! Love, Mel

My feet were lifted from the ground but my eyes still had you in view, 

God had confirmed my life was completed but something unaware to you. 

As I looked around, knowing that shortly after your hearts would be in pain, 

I asked God to make sure that each and every one of you would always be okay.

Mama five years has passed since the day and I know the tears still fall, 

If only I could, I would come back so that you don't have to deal with the pain of it all. 

I'm missing you just as much as I know that you're down there missing me, 

I reached the heavenly skies and I'm smiling because I got my angel wings. 

Mama life with you was everything and I miss seeing your beautiful face, 

I wish I could have one more hug, one more kiss or just to hear your voice say, "Mel."

When the winds wrap around you just know that I'm sending you my hugs,

When the thunder roars the loudest, know that I'm sending you my love. 

Mama the physical me will never return to the earth but my love never left you,

The same unconditional love I gave on earth, I give that same love in death too. 

 All three brothers...

I know that August 31, 2010 was a very painful day for all three of you dude's,

On the 4300 block of America Street is where the angels came and stood. 

Followed me to the hospital and held my hand until my last breath was taken,

My spirit was then released from my body and moves I started making. 

Flew to the heavens with the rest of my people to live eternal life, 

At the same time I'm missing my brothers and wishing I didn't die. 

But as we know the good Lord above has never made a mistake when names are called, 

And prayers are always answered that's why I asked if He'd watch over y'all. 

Look at y'all dude, I'm sitting here with a smile on my face just seeing this picture,

It would look a little bit better if ya' big brother was in it witcha'. 

Taking a moment to send smiles your way and joke with ya' just a little bit,

I will always and forever love you and that, you better not ever forget. 

Netia, five years has passed since I left and I just want you to know that I'm here, 

The physical me had to leave the earth but my love and presence is always near. 

Thinking about those old times we shared, the laughs and the playing around we did, 

I'd give anything just to have five more minutes with you sis. 

Enjoy life, love hard and do whatever it is you set your mind for, 

You just never know when that time will come for life to be no more. 

I'm so proud of you and all that you've done and I'll continue being by your side, 

God knew what He was doing when He gave me my wings to fly. 

Once upon a time there were three little girls who wanted to conquer the world,

They set out on a mission early in the morning to find every diamond and pearl. 

So from the heavens God called for an angel to help them find what they were after, 

"Melvin" he said, "Go help them out. You'll find them by the sound of their laughter." 

I was taken to the heavens, such a beautiful place and wings were placed on my back,

Then I flew to the earth to help complete your mission with my binoculars and sack. 

Every little journey that you travel, I'll be taking those same steps too,

And if you ever need a helping hand know that I'm standing right next to you.

When you lay to sleep at night, I'll tuck you in and kiss your cheek,

When you open your eyes, the "Good morning" you hear will be me. 

Baby dolls, I love ya'll so much and my love is there in your hearts,

You may not see the physical me but your daddy is never too far. 

Know that I'm always loving ya'll,

I just had to go cause God called. 

I'm never too far away,

I didn't just up and leave, God said I could not stay.

Love,
Mel

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 2/24/2015)

When God created me: This is why I'm here!

I love writing. I believe we are all put on this earth for a reason. When God created me, He created me with ink running through my veins and my brain made of letters. When God created me, He created a poet...not just any poet...a poet with a gift to speak on behalf of the deceased. When God created me, God knew that the world would need someone to write for their loved one so that they could hear from them when needed. When God created me, He created a special gift to give to the world.

I am here. Visit my site Kemi Kreations and get your personalized poem today!!!

Gone too soon!!! Miss you granda Ruth Pruitt!!!

I Love Me Some You Grandma!!! 

Twelve months too long...the world I know needs you,

Can't believe that you're gone...and my eyes don't see you.

I know the heavenly people are happy...you're with them,

I know God called you cos He wanted you home with him. 

Grandma, I love you more than you could've ever known,

The tears flooded my face as soon as I heard you were gone.

It seems as if I can pick up the phone right now and hear your voice, 

The selfish me would bring you back if I had my choice.

It's been a whole year and I still hear, "It don't matter to me."

Your voice calling me back my nickname, "Come here Shashi."

Seeing you sitting there at the table and laughing aloud,

Cane in your hand, Pepsi in your glass and you're wearing a smile.

The love I have for you will always and forever be, 

You birthed the woman who then gave life to me.

Grandma, I miss you more than this poem could ever say,

I'm so thankful to call you my grandma...grandma, just so sad that you could not stay.

Love,

Shala 

(Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 2/5/15)

I Love You Bobbi Kristina!!! Love Mommy (Whitney Houston)

I was just reading an article regarding the hospitalization of Bobbi Kristina, so I write:

God, I come asking that you wrap Bobbi Kristina in your loving arms,
I ask that you heal her whole and keep her safe from harm.
I ask that you be with her family as they sit close by her side,
I ask that you be her heartbeat, next breath and the vision in her eyes.

(This is written as if Whitney Houston is talking to her daughter)

I got wind that you needed me, so to the earthly grounds I flew,
There's rumors saying my death will be repeated but the God I know loves you.
The anniversary of my death is nearing and the pain of losing me has been hard to deal with,
But I live with the Father God and He has reassured me that this isn't it.

Bobbi Kristina, I want you to know that I love you with all of the love in me,
It was you, baby girl, that made my everyday living mean everything.
Sitting next to you now and looking at your beautiful face and holding your hand,
I may be gone from this earth but your mother's love will forever stand.

Rest my darling child, for God is here with you to make sure you're okay,
He's gonna make sure that you're 100% healthy cause I got on my knees and prayed.
I know that every day is rough for you and the world never seem to cut you any slack,
I hear you as you cry out to me asking why can't I just come back.

I wish it was that easy babydoll, I would be here with you right now,
Not as the faceless angel at your bedside but the physical me would come down.
You have a lifetime ahead of you and mommy will be here to see you live it,
Don't let the negativity bring you down, you have demand respect as well as give it.

Whatever you're going through I'll be walking alongside you each step of the way,
I know it seems the world is weighing heavy on your shoulders but go to God and pray.
You have your father, husband, siblings and family too-they love you just as I do,
Rest for now and when you come around, lace up your boots... you're a troop.

I love you Bobbi,

Love mommy!!!

(Written by Leukemiona S Kelley, 2/1/15)

In Memory of Melvin Labranch: For my bro August Alsina

My twelve year old daughter Amari is the biggest August Alsina fan. She talks about him all the time and I heard her say he lost his brother. I googled the information, grabbed some images and I write:

Death never tweets, FB message, text or hit you up on Instagram...
It comes when it comes leaving you feeling like, "Damn!!!"

It was August 31, 2010 when God looked in the book of life... marking mine completed,
Bullets punched through my flesh as soon as God said there were angels He needed.
I know that losing me is a pain that you will never get over but it gets better,
I look down on you every moment of every day wishing we were still chilling together.

Bro, I'm so proud of you. There's no words that can tell you how much,
I'm in the heaven's jamming too every time a song of yours on my playlist show up.
I lived a wonderful life, each moment of the twenty-four years I was given,
Don't think it ended when I was murdered cause bro I'm in the heaven's really living.

You down there showing out and I'm up here enjoying watching,
I say to all the other angels, "Look at my bro. I know him. He ain't never stopping."
If I could turn back the hands of time for five minutes just to wrap my arms around you,
If I could turn back the hands of time for five minutes just to stay I love you dude.

I miss the family so much and more than that,  I miss my little girls,
Always let them know that to me... they meant the whole wide world.
Tell them I'm right there by their side and by their side I will always be,
Take care of my daughters bro... make sure you do that for me.

I just wanted to send these words to let you know how much I love and miss you,
Know that I stand right by your side through everything you go through.
Know that your bro is truly living... an angel God called home way soon,
And know that no matter what... your big brother is always watching over you.

Love you dude,
Melvin

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley 1/12/2015)

In Memory of Eddie Kendrick: Love You Aika Kendrick

I saw a post on a one of my Facebook friend's wall about how much she missed her dad, so I write:

God calls us when our purpose on earth is completed.
God calls angels to come to heaven as needed.

My baby girl... I'm looking down from heaven's window on you,
Know that I hear and see everything you do.
Also know that I'm never far when you need to say my name,
My love still loves you all the same.

Though we all wish we had more time when death calls... we don't,
God will never weigh you down with more than you can handle... He won't.
As the days pass and you're missing me more than ever,
Know that I send my love whether it be through the humming birds or weather.

When the wind blows hard, I'm wrapping my arms tightly around you,
When the birds chirp, I'm singing and hoping my song has found you.
When the rain pours, I'm crying tears of happiness and love,
When the thunder roars, I'm screaming I love you... just because.

Aika, words can't describe the way I feel each moment of every day,
God called for me so in the heavens in where I'll stay.
Your father's love will always and forever be,
Aika Kendrick... you are such a blessing that God gave to me.

I look at my grandson with a smile... congrats on motherhood,
You should be very very proud darling... yes you should.
When you look at the clouds, know that I'm looking down on you,
I did not just up and leave... God said I had to.



I love you,
Dad (Eddie Kendrick)

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley 1/12/15)

In Memory of Wayne Mills (Friend of Craig Wayne Boyd & Blake Shelton)

I was watching a recorded show of the Voice when I saw Craig Wayne Boyd hand Blake Shelton a necklace from the wife of their friend Wayne Mills who is now deceased and I decided to write:

November 23, 2013 was the day God marked my life as completed,
It was the day He said to one of His angels, "Go get him because he's needed."
It was the last day that I'd have on the earth with all of you,
A day you'd feel lost and unsure of what to do.

Carol, I want to say that you are an amazing woman and I love you,
Whenever you start to wonder, know that my love shines down from above you.
I'm sitting high above those bright skies as all of us angels do,
I'm with you every single morning you wake and as the night fall upon you.

I'm so thankful that God blessed me by bringing you into my life,
So grateful that He saw fit for me to be your husband and you my wife.
I know losing me hasn't been an easy thing at all but God is with you,
I see the tears as they fall and know that my eyes get watery too.

Carol, there are no words that can be written to express my love for you.
Carol, there are no words that can be written to tell you how much I miss you.
Carol, there are no words that can be written to say exactly how I feel.
Carol, there are no words that can be written and I mean that.

Jack, I know my leaving you is something you just don't quite get yet,
You may know that I'm gone but I'm sure you're wishing I'd come back.
I asked God to help you understand and cease you're aching heart,
I know the day that daddy left you, it just tore your world apart.

I'm sorry son that the day had to come where I had to leave the earthly grounds,
I always thought that in every day of your life I'd always be around.
Know that God never make mistakes and on that day the decision was made,
Even though I know it hurts right now, please know that I made it okay.

Jack, there are no words that can be written to express my love for you.
Jack, there are no words that can be written to tell you how much I miss you.
Jack, there are no words that can be written to say exactly how I feel.
Jack, there are no words that can be written and I mean that.

Craig, thank you man for wearing my chain...I really appreciate the love,
Know that nothing you do go unnoticed cause I'm watching from the heavens above.
I know you're still like, "I can't believe it" every day that you rise with the sun,
God said He needed angels that day and that I was the perfect one.

Blake, dude you know I wasn't gonna forget you...how could I good ol' friend,
Thank you to for wearing my chain and know that I'm rooting for you to win.
You and Adam have me laughing hard as I watch from heavenly sky,
Me and all my angel friends be laughing so hard we cry.

I just want y'all to know that there's no need for tears, I'm safe and at home with God,
No mistake was made when He took me that day so tears...I shed them...not.
I love you all with all of my heart, keep living to the fullest every day,
It wasn't me. I didn't just up and leave but God said I could not stay.

Carol & Jack....I love you so much.

Love,
Wayne Mills

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley 12/15/14)

GOD...Thank You!!!

I was sitting at my computer and I began to type:

God, Thank You!!!

God thank you for waking me...been up a little over 4 hours and I thank you for taking me...to my computer to put in some hours at work...then giving me a 5 minute break and putting me back at my computer to get more hours which don't hurt. God thank you for being by my side each moment of every day...thank you for responding to me when I close my eyes and pray...thank you for being the best Father, protector, guide, and best friend...thank you for lifting me up when I start to give in...thank you for grabbing my hand and pulling me when I start to slow down...thank you for talking to me when there's no one else around...thank you for giving me all that I have, bare minimum is fine with me...thank you for letting me know that, that only applies to the moment cos for me you have great things...thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder when I needed...thank you for stressing to me that in everything I've done, I've succeeded...thank you for loaning me money and paying my bills...thank you for giving me a car that runs and food to cook these meals...thank you for giving me a clear mind and a clearer vision...thank you allowing me to feel love with no limits...thank you for being so awesome and allowing me to know what unconditional mean...thank you for blessing me with three fantastic kids, wouldn't trade them for anything...thank you for blessing me with a gift that heal the hearts of many...thank you for allowing me to be and realizing that who I am is plenty...thank you for being more than I could ever dream of, for loving me and keeping me stable...thank you for removing the knife from my hand when continuing this life I felt, I wasn't able...thank you for the molestation I endured, the pain from my rapist that made me the poet I am...thank you for showing me forgiveness works and allowing you to deal with the two of them...thank you for blessing me beyond anyone or anything else can...thank you for being the world to me...thank you. I pray/say in your beautiful son Jesus name...Amen!!!!

Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/14/14

In Memory of Jacqueline "Jackie" Donahue (Sister of Nelly & Mother of Shawn and Sydney)

I was watching an episode of "Nellyville" when I saw Nelly say that two of his children were actually his niece and nephew whom he took responsibility for after the death of his sister. I enjoyed watching the show but was more touched by the story, therefore, I took the gift God has blessed me with and began writing:

It's been a while since I've left the earthly grounds,
No matter how long it's been I know it still hurts the same not to have me around.
Know that I did not go far because my love still lives with you,
No matter how long, I'll never ever forget you.

Nelly, you are the best brother any girl could ever ask for,
Though you didn't have to, you did as I asked and more.
I love you bro and from the heaven skies I watch over you daily,
I know you sense my love and it has you feeling some type of way lately.

I'm not far at all...just beyond the clouds you look up to,
Don't you cry at all...I'm so thankful for the time God gave me with you.
All it takes is a call...you can yell up to the high and bright skies,
I hear it all...through the winds howl you'll hear my fast replies.

Shawn and Sydney... know that I'd give anything to have you in my arms again,
I know it's been painful but God called my name and I've been in heaven ever sent.
Know that no mistake was made, when God calls us...we have to go,
Know that each and every day...I'm looking down on you and loving you so.

A mother's love last forever and that's exactly how my love will last for you,
Look how big you've gotten and all the wonderful things you've been blessed to do.
You're listening to Uncle Nell ain't you? You better be...cause you know how he is,
I'm sitting back laughing as I watch down on all four of you kids.

Continue doing great things and never walk away from your dreams,
Know that life is too short and you want to live with no regrets about anything.
Be good to each other, take care of one another and love as much as you can,
And know that no matter what life brings you...I'll be right here, holding your hand.

Love,
Mama Jackie

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/6/14)

In Memory of Doris Rowland Garrison (Mother of Kelly Rowland)

I was online today and saw that Kelly Rowland lost her mom it was put on my heart to write:

When death finds us, it is never an easy thing to deal with,
A persons absence reminds us, it just always seem as if life ended too quick.

Kelly, I know that you sit there in pure shock, still in disbelief that I'm gone,
Asking God, "Did you really come and take my mom back home?"
God erased my presence from the earth only to have me present with Him,
I know it hurts but it's only a short time that God shares His precious gems.

Don't cry baby doll...know that I wear a smile on my face cause I'm home,
Thankful God brought me to this place and knowing His decisions are never wrong.
Don't be angry sweetie pie...I lived a beautiful life and I'm so very glad,
Thankful to God that He blessed me with you and for the awesome times we had.

When God calls us by name you don't ask why, you just get up and go,
Hate I couldn't notify you but the time and date are never known.
Death is nothing we can ever be prepared for, we just have to learn to let God work,
And don't ever forget to call Him by name whenever your heart begin to hurt.

Honey child if you could only see this gorgeous place that I now call home,
If it was up to me, I wouldn't have left you there I would've brought you along.
Know that I love you baby and my love for you will always remain by your side,
Listen to me...my body may be physically gone but mom is just fine.

Love,
Mama Doris

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley 12/3/14)

In Memory of Sharon Tucker (mother of Todd Tucker, Kandi Burruss-Tucker's husband)

I opened up Facebook this morning and saw a post from the Rickey Smiley fan page stating that Todd Tucker has lost his mother. I got up and came over to my computer and began to write:

God sat down and opened the book of where my life was written,
Marked "completed" and closed it, making it His final decision.
Then down to the earth He sent His angels on one specific mission,
They arrived taking the physical me, leaving no body, no heartbeat, no vision.

Todd, baby I know that this has to be one of the hardest days of your life,
To have me up and leave with no last hugs, kisses or good-bye's.
Know that I asked God to keep you wrapped in His arms, deeply protected,
He assured me He would and that's only what I expected.

Death has a way of sneaking up on us and there is nothing we can do,
But I say...God come to get His most precious angels when this life is through.
Death is one of those things we can never prepare for though we try our best,
But I say...We never truly die; we go back home to the heavens to rest.

I just want you to know that I've cherished every moment that I've been blessed with,
I lived the best life one could ever live and I thanked God every second before death hit.
You my son, I will miss like crazy and I just know you're in shock now,
Never wonder how you'll get through this cause I know just how.

I know a God who can do what we think is impossible at a moments notice,
I know a God who can dry fallen tears and get those blurry eyes back into focus.
I know a God who can heal the pain you now feel when you think it can't be done,
I know a God who is truly amazing and I asked Him to watch over my son.

In a week or so you'll sit and watch as my body is put into the ground,
You'll cry a flowing river of tears as my casket is lowered down, down, down.
Know that I did not just up and leave you God said I could not stay,
Know that I will always be near you, I got my angel wings today.

Love,
Mama Sharon

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/3/14)

In Memory of Michael Brown

I was walking with the homie when I felt a tap on my shoulder,
A voice very clear said, "Come now. Your time on this earth is over."
No resistance...I knew that God was sending His angels to get me,
I just took a deep breath and let go as each bullet hit me.

As my body hit the ground and those around look from a distance,
My spirit got up and flew away at an instant.
In disbelief they started to shout, "He killed him for no reason!"
God had already come and said, "You're coming home son. You're leaving."

I know you're hurt from the way things happened but God called my name,
I know you're angry at the jurors decision but God said I could not stay.
I know it won't be easy to get over but believe I'm in a better place,
I know you want to see me but in the heaven's is where I now lay.

Mom, I love you and I hate to see the tears in your eyes,
I hate that I didn't get a chance for I love you and at least a good-bye.
I know it seem unreal and the memories of me replay in your mind,
God make no mistakes and He came and said it was my time.

Dad, I love you too and I know the pain inside hurt pretty bad,
I wish that I could've given you that one last hug before I passed.
I know that this is a rough thing to deal with but believe me when I say,
God make no mistakes and He sent His angels for me that day.

World, I know you're angry and think destruction of things is the way,
It's the wrong thing to do and I ask this of you...kneel down on your knees and pray.
Life is not meant to live forever and one day you'll know what I mean,
I lived a wonderful life each moment before I died, I'm thankful for everything.

Keep my family in your prayers.
Hug my mom and dad if you see 'em.
Live your life to the fullest.
I'm fine...God called me to meet him.

Prayers for all,
Michael Brown

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 11/27/14)