My Poetry Letter To All of You! Love, Mel

My feet were lifted from the ground but my eyes still had you in view, 

God had confirmed my life was completed but something unaware to you. 

As I looked around, knowing that shortly after your hearts would be in pain, 

I asked God to make sure that each and every one of you would always be okay.

Mama five years has passed since the day and I know the tears still fall, 

If only I could, I would come back so that you don't have to deal with the pain of it all. 

I'm missing you just as much as I know that you're down there missing me, 

I reached the heavenly skies and I'm smiling because I got my angel wings. 

Mama life with you was everything and I miss seeing your beautiful face, 

I wish I could have one more hug, one more kiss or just to hear your voice say, "Mel."

When the winds wrap around you just know that I'm sending you my hugs,

When the thunder roars the loudest, know that I'm sending you my love. 

Mama the physical me will never return to the earth but my love never left you,

The same unconditional love I gave on earth, I give that same love in death too. 

 All three brothers...

I know that August 31, 2010 was a very painful day for all three of you dude's,

On the 4300 block of America Street is where the angels came and stood. 

Followed me to the hospital and held my hand until my last breath was taken,

My spirit was then released from my body and moves I started making. 

Flew to the heavens with the rest of my people to live eternal life, 

At the same time I'm missing my brothers and wishing I didn't die. 

But as we know the good Lord above has never made a mistake when names are called, 

And prayers are always answered that's why I asked if He'd watch over y'all. 

Look at y'all dude, I'm sitting here with a smile on my face just seeing this picture,

It would look a little bit better if ya' big brother was in it witcha'. 

Taking a moment to send smiles your way and joke with ya' just a little bit,

I will always and forever love you and that, you better not ever forget. 

Netia, five years has passed since I left and I just want you to know that I'm here, 

The physical me had to leave the earth but my love and presence is always near. 

Thinking about those old times we shared, the laughs and the playing around we did, 

I'd give anything just to have five more minutes with you sis. 

Enjoy life, love hard and do whatever it is you set your mind for, 

You just never know when that time will come for life to be no more. 

I'm so proud of you and all that you've done and I'll continue being by your side, 

God knew what He was doing when He gave me my wings to fly. 

Once upon a time there were three little girls who wanted to conquer the world,

They set out on a mission early in the morning to find every diamond and pearl. 

So from the heavens God called for an angel to help them find what they were after, 

"Melvin" he said, "Go help them out. You'll find them by the sound of their laughter." 

I was taken to the heavens, such a beautiful place and wings were placed on my back,

Then I flew to the earth to help complete your mission with my binoculars and sack. 

Every little journey that you travel, I'll be taking those same steps too,

And if you ever need a helping hand know that I'm standing right next to you.

When you lay to sleep at night, I'll tuck you in and kiss your cheek,

When you open your eyes, the "Good morning" you hear will be me. 

Baby dolls, I love ya'll so much and my love is there in your hearts,

You may not see the physical me but your daddy is never too far. 

Know that I'm always loving ya'll,

I just had to go cause God called. 

I'm never too far away,

I didn't just up and leave, God said I could not stay.

Love,
Mel

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 2/24/2015)

Playstation 4 vs My Child

**It's amazing the things we make time for**

My Poetry's Truths:

Heard the Playstation 4 was hitting the stores at midnite so outside the store I was seated. Blanket covering my legs and a jacket on my body to keep me heated. Got to the store about 2pm cos I wanted to b first in line. Was gon' make sure that if nothing else, I was gon' get mine. So I sat there and I waited. Thinking about all the fun I was gon' have, the prize I was gon' get for waiting. The moment come and I'm the first one in the store. The first one at the counter with my hundred dollar bills and more.

The next morning my child calls and says that they just wanna hang out with me. I just sat and listened as he/she said mama/daddy please come and get me. I had to tell 'em that I was beat cos I was out all nite, maybe another time. And got the response that I always say that and end up doing nuthin' but lieing. But hey, I got what I wanted so outta my bed I leaped. Went and open the box that waited patiently for me. Had the biggest smile on my face that one had ever seen. I finally got the game that I kept envisioning in my dream.

Later that day my child called and asked if I was still busy. He/She said, "Now can you come get me?" I responded with a quick lie saying that I gotta go in to work. The crazy thing is, I lied and didn't care that he/she was hurt.

(Written by Leukemiona "Shala", 11/15/2013)

Doorsteps (Uncensored)

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My Side of the Story

This is a poem I wrote back in 2011. I try to write what I see in this world and what if's. So I write:

I never meant to but things got outta hand
Mama started tripping out on me and these were the things she was saying...
You juss like yo' ol nuttn ass daddy
I wish I neva had ya'
You make me sick
I shoulda neva listened to the pastor
She neva showed me unconditional love
She neva taught me how to do things the responsible way
She blamed me for my father's wrong doings
She blamed me cos he wouldn't stay
One day after skool, she started rambling wit that mouth of hers
Tears started running down my cheek
Wrapped both my hands around her neck
Tighter and tighter until she couldn't speak
Neva tried calling for help
Just let her lay there, gasping for air...let her die
Didn't want to hear her bullshyt statements
Said this when the judge asked me why....
I didn't have a mother like you did
I basically raised myself
She constantly complained about how being around me sickened her
She said that she wished the abortion clinic is where I was left
I juss couldn't keep listening to it
I was about to commit suicide
Do I wish I could go back and change things
No becos we would juss be trading lives.

-Written by Leukemiona "Shala", 2011

To Those Families Affected by the Oklahoma (Moore) Tornado on 5/20/2013

When I heard about the death of the children in the Moore, Ok tornado, my heart went out to their families and I wrote:

We're trapped down below and our screams reach the surface
Then a hand reached down for each of us and a voice said, "You've completed your purpose."
Not truly understanding what was said, tears fell from our face
Then the voice responded, "Take my hand. Everything will be okay."

Without hesitation we reached up
Without hesitation He saved us
Though physically gone, we live
Not on the earthly ground but where heaven is.

We each asked a question concerning our mommy's and daddy's
God answered, "Let me take care of them."
And then a voice from one of the children asked,
"Can you tell them we're all here?"

A smile appeared upon the face of God as He responded, "Yes I will.
I'm also going to make sure that I hold each one until they completely heal."
So now that you know we're safe and protected, know that our love still lives
And though you're angered about this whole situation, know that God is real.

God never make mistakes...He don't
God never ever leaves us...and today He won't
God always oversee us...and He's watching down on you
We're little angels now and to our families left crying out...we know that God is true.

Pray. Believe. Vision. Smile.
Just imagine that we've took a field trip for a long little while.

Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 2013
**Hope this help you heal**