I was sitting at my computer and I began to type:
God, Thank You!!!
God thank you for waking me...been up a little over 4 hours and I thank you for taking me...to my computer to put in some hours at work...then giving me a 5 minute break and putting me back at my computer to get more hours which don't hurt. God thank you for being by my side each moment of every day...thank you for responding to me when I close my eyes and pray...thank you for being the best Father, protector, guide, and best friend...thank you for lifting me up when I start to give in...thank you for grabbing my hand and pulling me when I start to slow down...thank you for talking to me when there's no one else around...thank you for giving me all that I have, bare minimum is fine with me...thank you for letting me know that, that only applies to the moment cos for me you have great things...thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder when I needed...thank you for stressing to me that in everything I've done, I've succeeded...thank you for loaning me money and paying my bills...thank you for giving me a car that runs and food to cook these meals...thank you for giving me a clear mind and a clearer vision...thank you allowing me to feel love with no limits...thank you for being so awesome and allowing me to know what unconditional mean...thank you for blessing me with three fantastic kids, wouldn't trade them for anything...thank you for blessing me with a gift that heal the hearts of many...thank you for allowing me to be and realizing that who I am is plenty...thank you for being more than I could ever dream of, for loving me and keeping me stable...thank you for removing the knife from my hand when continuing this life I felt, I wasn't able...thank you for the molestation I endured, the pain from my rapist that made me the poet I am...thank you for showing me forgiveness works and allowing you to deal with the two of them...thank you for blessing me beyond anyone or anything else can...thank you for being the world to me...thank you. I pray/say in your beautiful son Jesus name...Amen!!!!
Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/14/14
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Saturday, December 6, 2014
In Memory of Jacqueline "Jackie" Donahue (Sister of Nelly & Mother of Shawn and Sydney)
I was watching an episode of "Nellyville" when I saw Nelly say that two of his children were actually his niece and nephew whom he took responsibility for after the death of his sister. I enjoyed watching the show but was more touched by the story, therefore, I took the gift God has blessed me with and began writing:
It's been a while since I've left the earthly grounds,
No matter how long it's been I know it still hurts the same not to have me around.
Know that I did not go far because my love still lives with you,
No matter how long, I'll never ever forget you.
Nelly, you are the best brother any girl could ever ask for,
Though you didn't have to, you did as I asked and more.
I love you bro and from the heaven skies I watch over you daily,
I know you sense my love and it has you feeling some type of way lately.
I'm not far at all...just beyond the clouds you look up to,
Don't you cry at all...I'm so thankful for the time God gave me with you.
All it takes is a call...you can yell up to the high and bright skies,
I hear it all...through the winds howl you'll hear my fast replies.
Shawn and Sydney... know that I'd give anything to have you in my arms again,
I know it's been painful but God called my name and I've been in heaven ever sent.
Know that no mistake was made, when God calls us...we have to go,
Know that each and every day...I'm looking down on you and loving you so.
A mother's love last forever and that's exactly how my love will last for you,
Look how big you've gotten and all the wonderful things you've been blessed to do.
You're listening to Uncle Nell ain't you? You better be...cause you know how he is,
I'm sitting back laughing as I watch down on all four of you kids.
Continue doing great things and never walk away from your dreams,
Know that life is too short and you want to live with no regrets about anything.
Be good to each other, take care of one another and love as much as you can,
And know that no matter what life brings you...I'll be right here, holding your hand.
Love,
Mama Jackie
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/6/14)
It's been a while since I've left the earthly grounds,
No matter how long it's been I know it still hurts the same not to have me around.
Know that I did not go far because my love still lives with you,
No matter how long, I'll never ever forget you.
Nelly, you are the best brother any girl could ever ask for,
Though you didn't have to, you did as I asked and more.
I love you bro and from the heaven skies I watch over you daily,
I know you sense my love and it has you feeling some type of way lately.
I'm not far at all...just beyond the clouds you look up to,
Don't you cry at all...I'm so thankful for the time God gave me with you.
All it takes is a call...you can yell up to the high and bright skies,
I hear it all...through the winds howl you'll hear my fast replies.
Shawn and Sydney... know that I'd give anything to have you in my arms again,
I know it's been painful but God called my name and I've been in heaven ever sent.
Know that no mistake was made, when God calls us...we have to go,
Know that each and every day...I'm looking down on you and loving you so.
A mother's love last forever and that's exactly how my love will last for you,
Look how big you've gotten and all the wonderful things you've been blessed to do.
You're listening to Uncle Nell ain't you? You better be...cause you know how he is,
I'm sitting back laughing as I watch down on all four of you kids.
Continue doing great things and never walk away from your dreams,
Know that life is too short and you want to live with no regrets about anything.
Be good to each other, take care of one another and love as much as you can,
And know that no matter what life brings you...I'll be right here, holding your hand.
Love,
Mama Jackie
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/6/14)
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
In Memory of Doris Rowland Garrison (Mother of Kelly Rowland)
I was online today and saw that Kelly Rowland lost her mom it was put on my heart to write:
When death finds us, it is never an easy thing to deal with,
A persons absence reminds us, it just always seem as if life ended too quick.
Kelly, I know that you sit there in pure shock, still in disbelief that I'm gone,
Asking God, "Did you really come and take my mom back home?"
God erased my presence from the earth only to have me present with Him,
I know it hurts but it's only a short time that God shares His precious gems.
Don't cry baby doll...know that I wear a smile on my face cause I'm home,
Thankful God brought me to this place and knowing His decisions are never wrong.
Don't be angry sweetie pie...I lived a beautiful life and I'm so very glad,
Thankful to God that He blessed me with you and for the awesome times we had.
When God calls us by name you don't ask why, you just get up and go,
Hate I couldn't notify you but the time and date are never known.
Death is nothing we can ever be prepared for, we just have to learn to let God work,
And don't ever forget to call Him by name whenever your heart begin to hurt.
Honey child if you could only see this gorgeous place that I now call home,
If it was up to me, I wouldn't have left you there I would've brought you along.
Know that I love you baby and my love for you will always remain by your side,
Listen to me...my body may be physically gone but mom is just fine.
Love,
Mama Doris
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley 12/3/14)
When death finds us, it is never an easy thing to deal with,
A persons absence reminds us, it just always seem as if life ended too quick.
Kelly, I know that you sit there in pure shock, still in disbelief that I'm gone,
Asking God, "Did you really come and take my mom back home?"
God erased my presence from the earth only to have me present with Him,
I know it hurts but it's only a short time that God shares His precious gems.
Don't cry baby doll...know that I wear a smile on my face cause I'm home,
Thankful God brought me to this place and knowing His decisions are never wrong.
Don't be angry sweetie pie...I lived a beautiful life and I'm so very glad,
Thankful to God that He blessed me with you and for the awesome times we had.
When God calls us by name you don't ask why, you just get up and go,
Hate I couldn't notify you but the time and date are never known.
Death is nothing we can ever be prepared for, we just have to learn to let God work,
And don't ever forget to call Him by name whenever your heart begin to hurt.
Honey child if you could only see this gorgeous place that I now call home,
If it was up to me, I wouldn't have left you there I would've brought you along.
Know that I love you baby and my love for you will always remain by your side,
Listen to me...my body may be physically gone but mom is just fine.
Love,
Mama Doris
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley 12/3/14)
In Memory of Sharon Tucker (mother of Todd Tucker, Kandi Burruss-Tucker's husband)
I opened up Facebook this morning and saw a post from the Rickey Smiley fan page stating that Todd Tucker has lost his mother. I got up and came over to my computer and began to write:
God sat down and opened the book of where my life was written,
Marked "completed" and closed it, making it His final decision.
Then down to the earth He sent His angels on one specific mission,
They arrived taking the physical me, leaving no body, no heartbeat, no vision.
Todd, baby I know that this has to be one of the hardest days of your life,
To have me up and leave with no last hugs, kisses or good-bye's.
Know that I asked God to keep you wrapped in His arms, deeply protected,
He assured me He would and that's only what I expected.
Death has a way of sneaking up on us and there is nothing we can do,
But I say...God come to get His most precious angels when this life is through.
Death is one of those things we can never prepare for though we try our best,
But I say...We never truly die; we go back home to the heavens to rest.
I just want you to know that I've cherished every moment that I've been blessed with,
I lived the best life one could ever live and I thanked God every second before death hit.
You my son, I will miss like crazy and I just know you're in shock now,
Never wonder how you'll get through this cause I know just how.
I know a God who can do what we think is impossible at a moments notice,
I know a God who can dry fallen tears and get those blurry eyes back into focus.
I know a God who can heal the pain you now feel when you think it can't be done,
I know a God who is truly amazing and I asked Him to watch over my son.
In a week or so you'll sit and watch as my body is put into the ground,
You'll cry a flowing river of tears as my casket is lowered down, down, down.
Know that I did not just up and leave you God said I could not stay,
Know that I will always be near you, I got my angel wings today.
Love,
Mama Sharon
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/3/14)
God sat down and opened the book of where my life was written,
Marked "completed" and closed it, making it His final decision.
Then down to the earth He sent His angels on one specific mission,
They arrived taking the physical me, leaving no body, no heartbeat, no vision.
Todd, baby I know that this has to be one of the hardest days of your life,
To have me up and leave with no last hugs, kisses or good-bye's.
Know that I asked God to keep you wrapped in His arms, deeply protected,
He assured me He would and that's only what I expected.
Death has a way of sneaking up on us and there is nothing we can do,
But I say...God come to get His most precious angels when this life is through.
Death is one of those things we can never prepare for though we try our best,
But I say...We never truly die; we go back home to the heavens to rest.
I just want you to know that I've cherished every moment that I've been blessed with,
I lived the best life one could ever live and I thanked God every second before death hit.
You my son, I will miss like crazy and I just know you're in shock now,
Never wonder how you'll get through this cause I know just how.
I know a God who can do what we think is impossible at a moments notice,
I know a God who can dry fallen tears and get those blurry eyes back into focus.
I know a God who can heal the pain you now feel when you think it can't be done,
I know a God who is truly amazing and I asked Him to watch over my son.
In a week or so you'll sit and watch as my body is put into the ground,
You'll cry a flowing river of tears as my casket is lowered down, down, down.
Know that I did not just up and leave you God said I could not stay,
Know that I will always be near you, I got my angel wings today.
Love,
Mama Sharon
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 12/3/14)
Thursday, November 27, 2014
In Memory of Michael Brown
I was walking with the homie when I felt a tap on my shoulder,
A voice very clear said, "Come now. Your time on this earth is over."
No resistance...I knew that God was sending His angels to get me,
I just took a deep breath and let go as each bullet hit me.
As my body hit the ground and those around look from a distance,
My spirit got up and flew away at an instant.
In disbelief they started to shout, "He killed him for no reason!"
God had already come and said, "You're coming home son. You're leaving."
I know you're hurt from the way things happened but God called my name,
I know you're angry at the jurors decision but God said I could not stay.
I know it won't be easy to get over but believe I'm in a better place,
I know you want to see me but in the heaven's is where I now lay.
Mom, I love you and I hate to see the tears in your eyes,
I hate that I didn't get a chance for I love you and at least a good-bye.
I know it seem unreal and the memories of me replay in your mind,
God make no mistakes and He came and said it was my time.
Dad, I love you too and I know the pain inside hurt pretty bad,
I wish that I could've given you that one last hug before I passed.
I know that this is a rough thing to deal with but believe me when I say,
God make no mistakes and He sent His angels for me that day.
World, I know you're angry and think destruction of things is the way,
It's the wrong thing to do and I ask this of you...kneel down on your knees and pray.
Life is not meant to live forever and one day you'll know what I mean,
I lived a wonderful life each moment before I died, I'm thankful for everything.
Keep my family in your prayers.
Hug my mom and dad if you see 'em.
Live your life to the fullest.
I'm fine...God called me to meet him.
Prayers for all,
Michael Brown
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 11/27/14)
A voice very clear said, "Come now. Your time on this earth is over."
No resistance...I knew that God was sending His angels to get me,
I just took a deep breath and let go as each bullet hit me.
As my body hit the ground and those around look from a distance,
My spirit got up and flew away at an instant.
In disbelief they started to shout, "He killed him for no reason!"
God had already come and said, "You're coming home son. You're leaving."
I know you're hurt from the way things happened but God called my name,
I know you're angry at the jurors decision but God said I could not stay.
I know it won't be easy to get over but believe I'm in a better place,
I know you want to see me but in the heaven's is where I now lay.
Mom, I love you and I hate to see the tears in your eyes,
I hate that I didn't get a chance for I love you and at least a good-bye.
I know it seem unreal and the memories of me replay in your mind,
God make no mistakes and He came and said it was my time.
Dad, I love you too and I know the pain inside hurt pretty bad,
I wish that I could've given you that one last hug before I passed.
I know that this is a rough thing to deal with but believe me when I say,
God make no mistakes and He sent His angels for me that day.
World, I know you're angry and think destruction of things is the way,
It's the wrong thing to do and I ask this of you...kneel down on your knees and pray.
Life is not meant to live forever and one day you'll know what I mean,
I lived a wonderful life each moment before I died, I'm thankful for everything.
Keep my family in your prayers.
Hug my mom and dad if you see 'em.
Live your life to the fullest.
I'm fine...God called me to meet him.
Prayers for all,
Michael Brown
(Written by Leukemiona "Shala" Kelley, 11/27/14)
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
In Memory of Beulah Jackson **Grandmother of Curtis (50 Cent) Jackson**
They say that when He sends His angels, He's sending for the best,
So I smiled as I greeted death and went on home to rest.
Curtis, I am so glad to have lived a life as the one God gave to me,
I am so glad to have been blessed with any and everything.
Now I can go and rest now and look down below on you,
Give it your very best now...know that your mother is looking with me too.
Life has a way of coming to an end so suddenly it seems,
Causing hurt to many hearts after all of the joy that one brings.
Though we all know to expect it; it never seem to hurt any less,
Know that I'm okay sweet boy, I just went home with all the rest.
I asked God to make sure to watch over you and heal your hurting heart,
God assured me that He's been doing just that from the moment that it started.
I've lived a beautiful life son and I thank you for all the love you gave,
Know that you're my #1 in so, so many ways.
As my body is lowered into the ground and good-byes are told out loud,
As the tears hit the dirt below, I'll be home up in the clouds.
Each morning you wake, I'll be kissing your cheek,
Every night that you sleep, I'll be kneeled at your feet.
A grandmother's love has no limits and come with no ending,
My body may not be physically there but my love keeps on giving.
Take good care of yourself son, continue to give what God has given you,
Remember that I love you and am safe now...
Gone to do what angels do.
Love,
Grandma (Beulah Jackson)
(Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 9/23/2014)
So I smiled as I greeted death and went on home to rest.
Curtis, I am so glad to have lived a life as the one God gave to me,
I am so glad to have been blessed with any and everything.
Now I can go and rest now and look down below on you,
Give it your very best now...know that your mother is looking with me too.
Life has a way of coming to an end so suddenly it seems,
Causing hurt to many hearts after all of the joy that one brings.
Though we all know to expect it; it never seem to hurt any less,
Know that I'm okay sweet boy, I just went home with all the rest.
I asked God to make sure to watch over you and heal your hurting heart,
God assured me that He's been doing just that from the moment that it started.
I've lived a beautiful life son and I thank you for all the love you gave,
Know that you're my #1 in so, so many ways.
As my body is lowered into the ground and good-byes are told out loud,
As the tears hit the dirt below, I'll be home up in the clouds.
Each morning you wake, I'll be kissing your cheek,
Every night that you sleep, I'll be kneeled at your feet.
A grandmother's love has no limits and come with no ending,
My body may not be physically there but my love keeps on giving.
Take good care of yourself son, continue to give what God has given you,
Remember that I love you and am safe now...
Gone to do what angels do.
Love,
Grandma (Beulah Jackson)
(Written by Leukemiona Kelley, 9/23/2014)
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
In Memory of Lonnie Lynn (father of rapper Common) R.I.P.
In my view stood angels dressed in the whitest robes I've seen,
One spoke stating the Lord has sent them to carry me.
So as each of their hands touch my body, I was lifted up high,
Non-stop was the movement until we reached the heavenly skies.
At the gates there stood God with open arms to greet me,
Tears fell faster than ever to know He'd be there to meet me.
Embraced me with a tight hug and allowed to come thru the golden gates,
So this is where I'll be waiting until we meet again one day.
Son, I'm just so thankful for the time we were given together on earth,
I just want you to know that I'll always love you cos I know losing me hurts.
To know that I'm no longer physically present but the life I lived was worth it,
To be surrounded by family and friends for so many years was absolutely perfect.
I know that the tears may appear and your heart may hurt a little,
Then the laugh will find it's way thru and the memories will have you tickled.
My voice will be heard and the pictures of me will bring a smile,
Know that I love you son and I always will and you made living that much more worthwhile.
Love,
Dad (Pops)
One spoke stating the Lord has sent them to carry me.
So as each of their hands touch my body, I was lifted up high,
Non-stop was the movement until we reached the heavenly skies.
At the gates there stood God with open arms to greet me,
Tears fell faster than ever to know He'd be there to meet me.
Embraced me with a tight hug and allowed to come thru the golden gates,
So this is where I'll be waiting until we meet again one day.
Son, I'm just so thankful for the time we were given together on earth,
I just want you to know that I'll always love you cos I know losing me hurts.
To know that I'm no longer physically present but the life I lived was worth it,
To be surrounded by family and friends for so many years was absolutely perfect.
I know that the tears may appear and your heart may hurt a little,
Then the laugh will find it's way thru and the memories will have you tickled.
My voice will be heard and the pictures of me will bring a smile,
Know that I love you son and I always will and you made living that much more worthwhile.
Love,
Dad (Pops)
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